in death do us part...

hello my friends!!ok..where the hell did summer go?? 90 degrees one day 60 the next! NY is like a fickle old lady! gotta love her! not so much!
lets talk about something we all hate to talk about. we don't even like to think about it. death. a beautiful young women died yesturday...and i mean young. no matter what your beliefs are i think its safe to say that some people stay on this earth waaaaayyy too long, and some are taken way too early. it's not so much the death part-although obviously that really sucks, but its all the suffering that goes with it. and not everyone is lucky enough to have someone like my BFF kelly to be there holding your hand, or my mother who made sure my father left this earth with as much dignity as possible. and as much as we prepare for death, and then after we walk around saying, "its for the best, they are in a better place." (that is true of course) but they are just words. you still feel the loss. that person is gone, and you still have the pain, and the emptiness inside of knowing that you wont ever hear them laugh again, or be able to touch them. it just takes time, so keep your pictures and your memories, that once, she locked you in a port-a-potty at inner harbor and almost knocked it over!

behind everybody we love lies the invitability of their loss. but that knowledge doesn't make it any easier when they are gone. and you are left with trying to come to terms with what's lost. (author unknown)