what about the past?

hello my friends!!! wow! what a fantastic summer!! and its just winging by so fast!! why can't winter go this fast? this blog took me a looong time to write. not only was i studying for the "dreaded test"..LOL..right donnie? but it was hard to find the right words. so i wrote it, then i re-wrote it. the i re-wrote it again! yikes! i've never second guessed myself so many times!! i've been doing that lately-i don't recommend it, its not a good idea.
ah the past. its a double-edged, no a triple-edged sword, ok multiple edges!! you can fall off at any given moment. i've heard it said, "don't dwell on the past" or "don't go back unless you want to be there." well sometimes i do want to be there. i had some damn good times i'd like to relive over and over again. or maybe i'd "get it right" this time. but mostly i don't like, or want to make the same mistakes twice, so i want to learn from my past. you can't just sweep the past under the rug and walk away. doesn't work like that. number one you wont learn a damn thing from it, number two it doesn't just go away, its always there, it WILL find you and it sneaks up on you in the most inconvenient times. you gotta face it. own it. and yes that is the voice oof experiece talking there. LOL. and i don't know a single person in this world who hasn't made mistakes and then just tried to forget them or hide from them. damn dog wakes up everytime. and number three-don't forget about those good times-enjoy them. that's why they're called "the good ol' days."

we think of the past as water under the bridge, a current that carries away the mistakes of our youth. the loves we lost, the addictions we gave into, the opportunities we threw away. but sooner or later reminders drift back into our lives of the mistakes we've made and the sins we've commited. and we do have to pay for them.
the past is never truely behind us. ghosts lurk in the shadows eagar to remind us of the choices we made. but if we look back, we might find an old friend welcoming us with open arms, or an old enemy with a hidden agenda. sadly, some of us refuse to look back, never understanding that by denying the past, we are condemed to repeat it. (author unknown)

until next time...safe journey.