romeo and juliet

hello my friends!!brrrrr!! got your gloves and mittens out?? ugh!! i'm moving to italy! in my dreams!! haha!! its no secret that i'm not a big believer in love anymore. i've mentioned it many times. i used to believe, i almost fell for it recently. i used to be this hopeless romantic...and not that long ago i thought i met the love of my life. he just didn't seem to feel the same way. all around me i see both couples in love and heartache. its a conundrum...lol. big word for such a little girl! anyway, so dummy me, i rented "letters to juliet" thinking, it will be a nice love story. and it was. i cried through the whole thing...what a sap! it was about love, loss, losing the one you love, and then finding them again, and being with the wrong person...and finding the right one. even though it was just a movie, it touched upon some very real subjects of the heart, and of life. we all know that most of the time life doesn't have the same happy endings that movies do. love is unpredictable. and as skeptical as i am on the outside, id like to think that on the inside im holding out for that happy ending. what i do know is that although i'm not totally disappointed, i'm not exactly where i thought i'd be in my life, but i'm still writing the ending.

we are born, we live, we die. sometimes not necessarily in that order. we put things to rest only to have them rise up again. so if death is not the end, what can you count on anymore? because you sure can't count on anything in life. life is the most fragile, unstable, unpredictable thing there is. in fact there is only one thing in life we can be sure of. it aint over 'til its over.

is it real or is it memorex?

hello my friends!! hope you all survived the rain ok! personally i had to canoe from the house to the car!! LOL! ok maybe im embellishing a little, but it sounded funny!anyway...sometimes things happen to me...but then i have to think, am i remembering this right? or did i dream this up? was it all just a dream to start with? not that long ago a close friend met someone. he said that when she walked in the room, it took his breath away, and suddenly there was no one else in that room-just her. he had just met the love of his life, and they had an evening he would never forget. a kiss that would stay with him forever...like a dream or a fantasy. that's the way HE remembered it. but he never heard from her again...so he started to think maybe he dreamed it up. has that happened to you? you remember it differently then everyone else? and you are afraid to talk about it because you are afraid your friends will think you are crazy? or it might actually interfere with your friendships? and if it did actually happen that way, and the dream is true...then what happens? perception is a funny thing...and we all have one...

when fantasy meets reality you never know what you are going to get. sometimes the reality falls just a little short of the dream. and sometimes it exceeds all expectations. it takes courage to reveal your secret desires. sharing them is a gamble, that sometimes brings us closer together, and sometimes pulls us apart. maybe that old saying is true, be careful what you wish for...it might come true[that is, if was even real to start with] (men in trees)