whats on the other side?

hello my friends!! as 2009 comes to an end i have much to reflect on-i'm sure we all do. i can't even begin to tell you how much i have changed spiritually and emotionally. i am a completely different person and i love it! but as the years have gone by, and the heartaches have come and gone, like so many people i have built my walls and hidden safely behind them. i did not even know how much really until recently when someone began trying to climb them. that person wasn't going to give up either...so in keeping with today's quote i decided to check out whats on the other side. i hope you will too.

sometimes life gets you on the blindside. but life goes on, and you make the best of it because its the only one you get. if you are strong abd you push through the pain and the fear, you often find that happiness is waiting for you on the other side.(men in trees)
thank you to my friends and family for being there for me and helping me over the wall.

until next time...safe jouney. see you all next year.

who am i??

hello my friends!! lately i have been searching for my nitch in the world...i have a good sense of my purpose, but i just had to figure out how to work it into my everyday life. this is a huge part of journey, this is where i am really getting to know myself, what i am capable of, what i can accomplish-where i am supposed to be....who am i? this is where the adventure starts!! i got an interesting piece of news today that i know is going to change my life forever....those who know me well know what that is!! and its going to test me and push me to limits i've not yet been to. so here it is..todays quote..from hero's
in the ongoing search for self there are days when we learn something genuinely new. something uncovered-hidden, that we never new was there. something that surprizes us. and on that day of self descovery a question remains. what kind of person are we? does the hero or villian inside us win the day??

until next time...safe jouney

this one's on me

hello my friends!! today is a new day!! so i was pondering my life up to this point, and not that long ago i would not have even considered blogging. "who would even be interested in what i have to say?". i was tired, and like alot of people life had gotten the best of me and taken the "steam" out of my selfesteem. but i don't feel that way anymore. i look around at my friends and family and i smile. i consider myself to be a kind person,compassionate, generous-more of the spirit then of the pocket, but i try when the economy isn't sucking me dry LOL. so if you are looking at yourself these days, feeling a bit beaten by life and wondering if you measure up-and i am sure you do, pick yourself up, dust yoourself off and remember the words of morgan freeman from the bucket list...

its difficult to understand the sum of a person's life. some people will tell you its measured by the one's left behind. some believe it can be measured in faith. some say by love. other folks say life has no meaning at all.
i believe that you measure yourself by the people who measured themselves by you.

until next time...safe journey

the future

hello my friends!! i'm back!! hope you all had a great and blessed christmas!! i know i did!! i am off to yet another family function, LOL, but before i go i wanted to share some thoughts.
it really was a great christmas. i did alot of reflecting a christmas' past (hope my grammer is correct there sorry if its not LOL)...but anyway, i remember being a kid myself and how the toys we had growing up were simply fueled by imagination instead of technology...that was all to be in the future. and as we got older and things changed i remember all my sister's kids and my brother's kids running around screaming excitedly and i thought, just wait until they are all grown up...and now they are. and i sat back and i watched this year as they all sat around at nana's house- my mom, or nonni as my son calls her and they talked and they laughed and i smiled and thought...here we are in the future, and it got here so quickly.
so here is todays quote...
the future can only be the future for so long. then it becomes the present.

until next time....safe jouney.

tradition, peace on earth, and a cure for cancer.

hello my friends and merry christmas!! this will be my last post for a couple days for obvious reasons!! so its going to be a big one-and all over the map covering lots of thoughts!! so i will apologize now for all the typos i am sure it will be full of..i do better with big crayons LOL!!
the holidays are usually always full of traditions that we always look forward too, and i have noticed lately that as we grow older and things change so have our traditions and even the people we celebrate them with. when i was a kid, every christmas eve we went to midnite mass, where prompltly after that my parents invited what seemed like the entire church and neighborhood over for sausage and peppers...mom and dad didn't stuff stockings and put out presents until well after 4am and us kids-well we were up at 6am sharp LOL. boy has alot changed, we have all gone through many girlfriends and boyfriends inbetween, neigboros moved away. or passed on, we have some X spouses in there and hey just because they are Xs doesn't mean they didn't share in the traditions and that we don't have good memories. we go to early mass now, and christmas dinner is right after, then we exchange gifts, and head home with our own families....and the big one. my dad is no longer with us in body. only in spirit.
so peace on earth good will to men is still the number one wish at this time....as it should be...and my heart goes out to those soldiars fighting for our freedom everyday, with courage and honor...they are held in the highest esteem in my eyes. my god bless you all. but i also have another wish to add to that...as most of you know my mom has cancer-and we are glad she is here to share another year of our tradition...so here is my wish...i wish for a cure for cancer. thats the most unfair war, attacking men, women and children of every age, who also fight with courage and honor. god bless you all as well...
so todays quote is not a quote at all actually but the lyrics to an old beatles song...they said it best...for memories, people and traditions we have loved and lost to whatever battle....may they live on in our hearts forever

there are places i remember, all my life, ,though some have changed. some forever not for better, some are gone, ,and some remain. all these places have their moments, with lovers and friends, i still can recall. some are dead and some are living, in my life...i loved them all....

until next time...safe journey.

patience

hello my friends!!! if you have kids then you know that neither of you has any patience left right now-LOL. my son not only wants to open his gifts but he wants me to open mine!! they had a holiday gift shop at his elementary school where they could take their allowance and buy gifts for their family members and friends. so he brings mine home with a bunch of others and places it under the tree. then he figits around a bit until he decides to tell me how much i am going to love it...and maybe i should open it NOW!! i tell him i'm sure i will love it, but that i would really like to wait until christmas day-as is tradtion-when he opens his gifts so i have something to open to. needless to say that did not work and well...i love my new sudoku puzzle book!!
they say that patience is a virture...and like most virtues, we never know if we posses it until its been tested. if we're lucky we have someone to take the test with us. and if we can pass that test, if we can wait long enough, we just might find the reward greater then we expected. the funny thing about waiting is always seems the more we want something-the longer we have to wait for it....(men in trees)

until next time...safe journey.

no regrets

hello again my friends...its a new day!!! a i was laying in bed this morning just lounging-a the perks of a sunday morning, LOL. my mind started to wonder into an area i try to avoid. i think we all do. things that i regret. wished i hadn't done, or had done or just had done differently. some people think that regrets are a waste of time. but i heard a quote (of course LOL) and i agree with it.

regret is a funny thing. you try your best in life to avoid it, but sometimes it the hard things in life that teach us the most. which makes you wonder...if given the chance how many of us would do things differently? for some, regret is the very thing that helps us push past our fear and move into the future. for others its the thing that lets us re-explore our past. at its best, regret can be the catalyst for a new beginning...where anything and everything is possible. (men in trees)

until next time...safe journey.

have i made a difference??

we meet people all the time...when we were kids playing on the play ground, in church(if your parents made you go, mine did of course!), camping, school, college, work...the grocery store-all the time. right?

how much time does it take to m ake a difference in someone's life? is a chance meeting enough? 6 months? a decade? shakespear said he wrote to be immortal. writers hope their written word will keep their memories alive, but books can be lost, words erased, and stories changed. with all those varibales working against you, how can you ever know you made an impact? (author unknown)

until next time, safe jouney

i seek where i belong

hello again!!! today is a new day!! i wake up every morning and say that!! a fresh slate....time to begin again!!! the holidays, as busy as they are, can also be a time for loneliness for some of us. not that we don't enjoy our friends and family, of course we do, and i love every moment i spend w/them. just feels like we don't actually fit in anywhere quite right sometimes (not always anyway). and so we seek where we belong....i mean permemantly..hence todays quote:

you will travel through the valley of rejection. you will reside in the land of the morning mists...and you will find your home-though it will not be where you left it.(author unknown)

until next time....safe journey.

human nature

so here i am again....anybody out there?? LOL
every year around this time we do the same things...right after thankgiving we get up in the middle of the night to trample eachother on black friday-big LOL there, on the weekend we try and string up the lights, and curse when one goes out because then they all go out(right sister??), and after that its just one shopping day frenzy, long line, and tons of traffic right up until the last minute....its human nature. its happens every year. so here's todays quote, sums it up nicely...
jounalist william d tammeus wrote:
you don't really understand human nanture unless you know why a child on a merry-go-round will wave at his parents every time around and why his parents will always wave back....

whats in between?

i don't have a neat order for my quotes..i just kind of go with the flow of how i am feeling or whatever is going on in my life. of course i am not perfect-although i like to pretend that i am sometimes, LOL. especially if i am talking to my 9 year old son!! so they aren't all posative or have all lighthearted themes. it would be unrealistic to expect that. we all go through ups and downs, heartaches and happiness...i write about it all....as best i can...so be prepared for just about ANYTHING!
frederick nietzsche wrote that we come into this world alone and we go out of this world along...so everything that happens in between?? well thats on us!! we owe it to ourselves to find a little company, we need support. we need to feel connected, i think we should allow ourselves the possibility for something greater. i also know-or at least i FEEL that there just has to be more out there then this....but then again, thats the angel in me...

my journey

so i don't even know if anyone is even reading my blog out there...but here i am on a journey..i mean that's what life is right?? i am single..i would love to find my spiritual partner to take this journey with..this adventure. but maybe i am standing in my own way, i'm not sure. i keep looking for love, but then i keep comparing what i find to what i had and i do what i call the duck and run-it seems easier.
sometimes in order to move forward you have to stop looking back. its always tempting to stick to what's safe or what's comfortable. but love isn't safe. we can't trust that it will stay the same, all we can do is hang on, even if we feel vulnerable-naked even. you may never feel ready to move on but you have to really because thats how we grow, and growing is what its all about.(author unknown)
lets see if i can take my own advice....

meaningful moments

why is it that when memories are happening you don't know they are memories until they are over and then it is too late to truely enjoy enjoy them. but hopefully the person or people you are making those special moments w/are around at least for a little while if you are lucky....
it always surprizes me how small a part of life is taken up by meaningful moments, and most of them they are over before they even start. although they cast a light on the future and they make the person who origionated them....unforgetable.(anna and the king)

i have another quote similar to this one that i will add at a later time...

live

i will not die an unlived life. i will not live in fear of falling or catching fire. i choose to inhabit my days...to allow my living to open me...make me less afraid, more accessible. i choose t risk my significance to live-so that which comes to me as seed goes to the next as blossom, and that which comes to me as blossom goes on as fruit. (author unknown)

the beginning

memory is a selection of images, some elusive, others printed indelibly on the brain. each image is like a thread, each thread is woven togeher to make a tapestry of intricate texture, and the tapestry tells a story, and the story is our past.